Friday, August 23, 2002

:::listening to: Mr Ed Jumps the Gun-SMOKE:::

Okay just came back from getting my locker this morning. Summer is nearing its end, and school is just the beginning of a new nightmare. Ayouu!! X{

Yesterday, I slept at an unusual time like someplace around 8 ish. Gosh!! Dats to early! I usually go beddy bye at 12 ish! Its because of the lack of sleep I've had yesterday. Heh, 4 hours of sleep, whoo. It's some sleep at least!! XD I can sleep in just for a few hours and come bouncing back, again. I'm a freak I know. ^,^ Oh and the lockers, I got the top again. He he!! I'm somewhere next to the english hall, across from the next row of lockers next to the entrance doors in the hall. =p The only dumb thing dat happened, was the folks distributing the locker combinations gave me the wrong numbers!! URGH! I wasn't angry, because it was just a mistake though. Nyeh. I didn't have have enough steam to let it out anyway. It's soo cold.~~ I had to ask the janitor WTH happend, and he showed me this chart thingy for proof and mine was completly messed up!! I'm impressed it finally works. YAH!! XD. The dude was a pretty kewl guy, though. So yes, I'm back here working with Hewey-chan on my next sites I'm gonna put up. Hopefully, somewhere around when school starts. Another thing dat bothered me this morning was when dat thing started calling me a mean person. Mean person u say?? The thing I'm referring to is a person I knew since middle school, but this is my blog I get to talk shit about her he he. I won't reveal her name, since most of u wouldn't care or have a clue who she is anyway. So I'll put it down in this sentence. She's a bitch and she sux, the end!! See dat was pretty easy, huh??

I waited in line with SLM and had wonderful chats what we did over the summer. Its been awhile, since I last saw him. ^___^. Thanx for the hugz. =D I'll try to not make my entries too extended. Whoops, I said "try" too late. ^^;

I was suppose to finish painting our bench outside, but I just wasn't in the mood. =( I was even more pissed yesterday, cuz SOMEBODY didn't bother helping me and Veronica paint. We were there like around 7 and went home at 12. Thanx alot I was pretty damn, tired....Urggh..How could u guys?? XO

Okay, i-net stuff: Still working refreshing my art gallery. =) Now the only thing left is to do the links, make thumbnails n crap. The other sites I'm working on is rebuilding my Yusuke shrine and the current DNAngel one. Which sis and me plan to put together the scanlation project we're working on. I plan to poison u people w/ it. Mwahaha!!
::Stomach growls:: O.....shouldn't have said dat....runs to kitchen.

::sighs:: I'm dying for some Jamba Fruit.. err I meant Juice whatever. ^^;;. Need fruity fibers and vitamins!! Sowwy, I'm a fruit vampire when it comes to JJ. XD GOOD STUFF!

Welps, gotta get back to work, folks. C-YAZ.

O Thanx for reminding me Shelly. The new title, is great BTW. I changed your link. SEE!! SEE!!! XD

O yah. Thanx for the warm comments peeps. I see the parent querreling thing is part of our every lives neh?? I don't deserve buds like u. U guys are tyte! =S

Yes, I do speak tagalog, Mandy. Perhaps I can teach u how to swear, so ur friend would stop messing with u. he he. =D

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Wednesday, August 21, 2002

mood:::unstable:::

::sighs:: There was once a happy Hana who just sat on her bed quietly, while doodling something that came outta her head randomly. However, as I didn't expect the opposite happens.

I get bored later on, and find my aunties' having their conversations they occasionally enjoy, since they have nothing else better to do. I have a term for dat! XD I go to the kitchen to ask mother if she can rent a game later on. Suddenly, she changes the damn subject concerning what I ate this morning. I told her I ate oatmeal and a whole glass of milk this morning. Meanwhile, I began to worry what has been her problem lately, but I never expected I would be the center of attention. Mom has always had this history of getting pissed at anything I do wrong( or what she thinks I'm doing), but I never thought she starts making a big deal outta my weight problem. What she doesn't realize is how fucking sensitive I am about it. Since than, I've always been the problematic of the whole family, since. Being the spiteful one, sorta hurts.... She has always been the same. There were even times, I've wanted to spend time alone with mother. To speak about the things that bothered me whenever I was depressed or frustrated. Yet, she continues to push me away further as I kept trying. It hurts being being pushed away, I just want to talk, but she can't seem to open her eyes........The problems I had to suffer and the person whom, I've held important barely helps me. !_! Possibly, one of the reasons for my anti-social behavior at times..... It all started when she yells at me to get off my butt and excercise on dat damn treadmill she tells me to babysit. I recorded the conversation as I went.

Me: "Can I rent something at Hollywood Video?"
the mother: "What did u eat this morning!?"

Me: "Oatmeal and milk...."
the mother: "oh....."
Me:"um. so can we?"
the mother: can u what?"
Me: rent something??
the mother:NO!
Me:....
the mother: "Go, excercise on the threadmill"
Me: "Why are u forcing me?"
the mother:" Do u understand? "
Me: "I'm not dumb, yah"
the mother:" U wanna get sick like the obese people u see on TV!"
Me: "No. Did u have to go that far?"
the mother: "I'm just telling u, so u understand!"
Me: Understand what? Of how huge people are?!(inside head::WTH)"
the mother: Your not getting one okay!! Now go excercise so u can burn all dat fat!"
Me: U don't have to yell, I'm right here!!!!
the mother: "Don't u dare say anything back to me again!!! One more time, and I'm gonna kick u out of the house!!!! Understand!
Me: I didn't say anything back!!! I just told u not to yell at me!! That's it..
the mother(saying something in tagalog)"Loco,....sisaipa 'ng ang kita. Putong ng' bata to.
Me:Me(in a state of displeasing): Chsshh.....Why don't u persume I'm fat than! Seesh!! Leaves the kitchen. Slams the bedroom door.

Now there I am. By myself alone in the bed snuggling up a pillow to cover my digusted face,...... isolated, wanting to be left alone. At that time, I was in a state that resembled, the "fuck me" mood. Being humiliated by the ones u love, dat hurted I tell ya.... Suddenly, sis, comes in the room and asks wuts wrong. I tell her what mom said about the game, but she doesn't seem to show any sign of comfort. Heh, some sis she turns out to be....I've been deprived of sis being around to support me. As it turns out, she doesn't seem to notice how emotionally unstable I am. I understand she hates dat kinda crap, but she's just there....I continued laying there crying and crying.......I need some one to lean on....::sniff::sniff::

I'm sorry I had u worried folks, but I'm alright now. =) Yup, I'm ghetti again! Heh. All I need is a fresh glass of lemonade and a computer to settle down.::looks over at Hewey-chan:: Oh yah I've been working on my art gallery site yesterday, thank jebus its going well. =) I've got the main page done, now I gotta do the rest. Alright, I'm out!!! No, time to social now sowwy! XD

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Sunday, August 18, 2002

::munching on a banana"""

Kay, I'm supposed to be in a good mood today, but I I haven't been lately. Its the weekend, but I've spoiled it with drawing and playing VG in my room the whole time. Even bad, I only eat twice a day now. Exciting.......

I swear, IE is beginning to piss the fuck outta me. I wouldv'e made this next post worth reading but, that fucking error report thing had to pop up and jack up my entry. Stoopid a-holes!!.....
Excuse my langauge folks, but I don't wanna upset u, so I'll start from scratch again

Lotsa things have been bothering me lately. Like what to do after I get outta HS. Since, I'm officially a senior now, its gonna be my turn to enter into the adult world. I'm picturing an office,filing cabinets and a buttload of people around me giving me instructions to do this and that. It's scary I know, but I'll survive somewhat. Many consider me taking a field of animation and digital art. Maybe, that digital art thing doesn't sound dat bad though...Yet, I still question of my worthiness to be in that position.

Didn't do alot the whole day, cept I had to clean the room this afternoon, cuz mommy yelled at me for 6th bijillion times already. Sheesh, I'm 4 feet away from her she didnt' have to yell!! >=o Grabbed teh vacuum and rock-n-roll! Meanwhile, I found nothing to watch on TV. Heck, TV sux like hell now. I decided to stick in one of my fav. disney movies, Aladdin. Robin Williams happens to be one of fav. voice actors, ever since he did Batty from the movie, Ferngully. Surprisingly, he still is today. The current disney films today, just doesn't cut compared to their classic ones. Really. O and I heard rumors dat they might've copied the series Nadia, when they released thier other film, Atlantis. I'm sorry, I just didn't care too much about it, I digress, they're starting to domestic Myazaki's stuff, though, so there maybe a chance. Can't wait to see their latest film, Treasure Planet. Is that what its called? Anyway, its got pirates in it!!! YAH!

Whoops not done yet. Once again I have another survey for your viewing pleasures. Snatched it offa T-chan.

Full Name: Kristine Reyes Santos

Birthday: Sept. 13 1985

Zodiac Sign: Virgo

Gender: All bitch

What Time Is It? 1:53 A.M

Are You Sensitive? Actually, yes...

Person Who Last...

Called You? Erick(though I wish, he never did...)

Slept In Your Bed? uh...me, yah

Saw You Cry? Lei

Made You Cry? feeling hopeless..

You Shared a Drink With? Nah. Senpai, I wanna try some Ramune!!! 8S

You Went to the Movies With? Family-watched Triple X

You Went to the Mall with? daddy and sis =D

Yelled At You? Mom...

Sent You An Email: other anthony

Have You Ever...

Taken a Picture of Yourself With a Milk Moustache and Sent It to the Milk People? nah, it would be entertaining though

Said "I Love You" and Meant It? Define "love"..hmph..

Gotten into a Fight with Your Dog/Cat? Doggie, stole my slipper!!!::chases Kyo across yard::

Been to NY? no

Been to Florida? no

California? it obvious...

Hawaii? No, I wanna though

Mexico? no, but Ryoko advises not to drink the water there. ><;

China? Never, went to Asia..

Canada? Yes, luv dat place. ^^

Danced Naked? No, unless I'm on crack or something.

Had a Dream About Something Really Crazy, Then It Happens the Next Day? That actually happens?

Stalked Someone? Nah

Had a Mud Bath? Ewww....

Wished You Were the Opposite Sex? O yah...several times...

Had An Imaginary Friend? I danceed with spirits. @@;

What Time Is It Now? 2:09 A.M

Apples or Bananas? Apples

Blue or Red? Both, but blue for now cuz its closer to teal! =D

Backstreet Boys or N*Sync? Used to be BSB, now I don't care

Wal*Mart or Target? Target

Spring or Fall? Fall

Santa or Rudolph? Santa

What Are You Going to Do After You Finish This? Mmmm.........sleep

What Was the Last Meal You Ate? Maui Mama pizza =9~

High School or College? high school :cough:cough:

Are You Bored? Hvae been a long time ago

How Many of Your Buddies Are Online? 1

Last Movie You Saw? Triple X

Last Noise You Heard? My bird "tweeted"

Last Smell You Sniffed? FOOD!

About Your Friends...

Laughs the Weirdest? Not, sure but there's a list....

Who Have You Known the Longest? Sataya or Anthony? - -;

Loudest? Ha---u know the rest...

Is the Quietest? Me.

Will Fill This Out and Send It Back The Soonest? could be anyone

Who Is The Funniest? Jeff and Ryoko are in competition

Who Is the Moodiest? Of course Jeff wins this one..

Biggest Pimp? Heh, there are a few..

Biggest Player? Hmm.....

Who Can You Tell Most of Your Secrets To? not really, I'm not close to anyone much yet, but.....

Who Do You Usually Go To About All Your Problems? It depends whether I'll open my mouth or not

Name Your Best Bud of All Time? I hate picking, I luv all my buds.

Last Time You Went Out of State? Last summer I went to Washington,Seattle(nice place actually), and Canada

Lucky Number? 27

Do You Have a Crush on Someone? ......

Do They Know? How do I answer this, even if I don't know for myself XD

Do You Have a Girlfriend? What T-chan says. ^^;

What Book Are You Reading Now? Usher's Passing

Nicknames? Hana, Hana-chan, BUM!(sis authorized only), the last suffix of my name, Kris(please don't call me dat...)

Hair Color? Black when its in the dark, but brown in the light( yes, I like being detailed..)

Height? 5'4''

Pets? 4 dumb dogs and 1 smart one, 2 cockatails, fishies =)

Siblings? Me sis Liezl(Yuri-chan)

Been So Drunk You Blacked Out? (laughs..)Nah, never touched the stuff

Taken Any Illegal Substances? Got Advil???

Gone Out in Public in Your Pajamas? Yah, I actually fell for a senior prank during my sophmore year.><;

Missed School Because It Was Raining? yah! my life saver =D

Set Any Body Part on Fire for Amusement? I bet a few pyromaniacs wrote this survey, huh?

Kept a Secret From Everyone? hell yah

Wanted to Hook Up With a Friend? not really

Cried During a Movie? Yah, actually

Ever at Anytime Owned New Kids on the Block Stuff? Back in my youth, yes ^^;

Planned Your Week Based on the TV Guide? Damn couch potatoes....

Been on Stage? Yah, had to make a speech in elementry, during my graduation.

Favorites

Shampoo? Thermasilk

Soap? Carefree

Colors? TEAL!! Baby blue, maroon, red, silver. true green

Day or Night? Day

Summer or Winter? Winter, I sleep better XD

Lace or Satin? Lace

Cartoon Character? Zoro(ran outta options.)^^;

In The Last Two Weeks

Cried? Nope, its a sin to see a gurl cry

Cut Your Hair? Yah, during senior portraits

Worn a Skirt? I don't like em

Been Sarcastic? yah, actually

Talked to Someone You Have a Crush On? Yah

Hugged Someone? Yah, my auntie who came from the Philipphines dropped by our house.

Fought With Your Parents? Not daddy, but mommy..yah...

Wished Upon a Star? I'm in the wrong storybook.....

Laughed Until You Cried? YES!!

Played Truth or Dare? No

Watched a Sunrise/Sunset? Sunsets are purty.

Went to the Beach at Night? No, but I would like to

Spent Quality Time Alone? yah

Ate a Meal? U need to, duh.

Are You Lonely? all the time::shivers::

Are You Happy? I'd rather be, but I can't always to be honest.

Are You Talking to Someone Online? No, the ones listed right now are not worthy of speaking with

Do You Believe

Love? Yes

God/Devil? Sowwy, mass brainwashed me

Heaven/Hell? not at all...

What is Your Full Name? Weren't u listening in the beginning?

Who Named You? the Mother

When Was the Last Time You Showered? After 4 PM

What Color Pants Do You Have On Right Now? Teal!! XD
What Song Are You Listening To Right Now? Come What May-Ewan Mcgregor

What Is Your Computer Desk Made Of? wooo....d

What Are the Last Four Digits In Your Telephone Number? 9079(u do the guessing) ^__0

Where Do You Want To Go On Your Honeymoon? Vegas probably. I hate the weather though.

How's The Weather Right Now? Its alright I guess

What Did You Do Last Night Besides Sleep? Blogged...

It's social time!

Thanx everyone for commenting about the layout! =D

Oh yah, PLUG #1. Incredible design Pu-chan! ^^

Hananikko flew by @ 09:34 PM PST [Link]

Alright quick post.....

Welps. I finally changed the layout of this place, after wrestling with myself for the last couple of weeks trying to figure out what layout I wanted. I had to querral between doing another DNAngel one, or Lunar. Meawhile, sis suggested a Rival Schools editon, since it reminded of school I didn't bother. Baka sis...I just can't seem to find decent pix's nowadays. I have to schedule for a hutning frenzy for now on.. ><;Got very impatient, so I choose Iori to handle the situation.::waves:: My previous ones end up looking like crap most of the time, but surprisingly, I actually consider this one to be my fav. so far Hopefully, I'll become more complex in designing someday.::pats back:: ^^; There are a couple of things I used for this one that I haven't done on the previous ones, since I never tried. Got a bit carreid away with the brushes and several of patterns. I finally know how to do scanlines!! Ka-ching!!! HO got skillz! Hana levels up!!! Okay don't call me a pokemon anymore. - -;; I get my motivation fuel from looking at other peeps' layout, which always end up looking wayyyyyyy better than mine. Urgh. Must learn more Photoshop skillz.::

Nothing to talk about, cept play Lunar 2 somemore. >=D Ta-ta!To lazy to social, I do that tomorrow. =P

Congrats Shelly!! Ur the first person to comment me! YAH! XD

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