07/18/2002 Entry: "Mood Swings"

::listening to: We Are! by (?)/Opening song for One Piece:: I apologize for my 2 days absences folks. I didn't know what was going on at the time, but all dat I know is I feel pretty indifferent, somewhat. Yet, I feel kinda hyper agian. So what, I got carried away with too much cider than XDI'm typing this on my sis lappy. Me too wazy to go to comp room right now. XD

On Tuesday mood swings started to kick in so I didn't have any reason to type in a post dat day. Why?? Too frustrated.. Every morning my mom starts making me do this, do that and I can barely walk, since I wake up all droggy and messed up. I feel refreshed when I splash my face w/ cold water though. Reminds me when I have to get up school early..The only thing I expect is a good morning greeting or a nice plate of pancakes just waiting to be devoured. ;9 Nah uh its never the same how I visualize it. I don't usually eat breakfast in the morning, so that must be why my stress gets worse every minute. Another evidence of my silence behavior as well. I agree a Hana dat doesn't eat, isn't a very happy one either.
Next, mom tells me to eat less, since I'm on a diet, but doesn't she feel how fucking sensitive I am about my weight? Sure, I wanna lose weight, but the thought of controlling what I eat everyday is nerve racking!! Of course, no offense I luv to eat. Ha Ha =D I despise it when she shows my those stoopid diet schedules she finds in the Family Circle magazines. Another thing dat frustrates me is when she always compares me to other teens my age and throwing a buncha bullshit about acedemic achievements they've done, saying how she wishes I can be just like them? Sounds familiar?? I thought so. Pretty common among asian parents nowadays. Just hearing about it leaves me heart broken too. I get the feeling of being inferior to the brainy peeps. I was reffering to what T-chan said on dat one post the other day, about being "an extra". Yet, another example how to desribe me in a way. So remember ur not the only one. ^_O I'm always the last one to hear about certain activites my family or even buddies tell about. So I have plenty of reasons for being a lone wolf type.?
I'm not gonna mention all of them, cuz I don't want u guys to get all emotional about me or anything. Just relax nyeh?.::sniff::sniff.


Uhh anyway, enough of my depressing history, let's go on to something light-hearted shall we? Umm, I didn't go to the movies that other day I was suppose to. So yah, mommy can be very good liar too. X{ Each time she says, I can watch on that day, it always ends up being on a different date. Gosh, u don't know how much I hate that. XD Sis and I wanted to watch Reign of Fire, meanwhile dem elderly geezers, which I refer to as my parents, wanted to see dat Road to Perdition thing starring Tom Hanks. Trust me, I'm not a drama loving fanatic, so there's no use in tagging along for a joy ride with them. Hmm maybe, my mom would allow me to bring someone to watch w/ sis and me. Hopefully, they let us watch tomorrow at the Great Mall by ourselves. Damn, I'm obssessed on getting the Houshin Engi DVD. Wah.Anyway, di little booger will do what it takes. >=D

Oh yah, looking forward to Jeff-kun's party next week. I've never been nor see his house at all. XD See why I'm always the last to find out about things. Gah!! I don't even have directions to his house!! Maybe, I'll ask senpai if I can tag for a ride when he goes over there. Purty pweez senpai??::kneels:: I still needed to buy something for him too, but what would the big tall loud white dude want??::thinking...Back to the drawing board w/ me. XD::erases blue prints::I'm also looking forward to seeing T-chan and Sexy Crew peeps there. I miss u guys.::hugs::hugs::^__^So yah, everything is gonna be rad and more food for me! LOL
Oh yah!! Yesterday, sis and I was navigating the net to check out hotel reservations for our Vegas trip! Yup, I'm actually going next month baby!! I already planned what I wanted to do on the first day I get there, but I'm sure the second day is gonna be a biggie! I wanted to visit the Gameworks they have over there and possible see the adventure dome in Circus Circus. Which means I get to be showered with a buncha arcade machines when I get there too! Whoo more fun!
Mommy was suggesting we stay at the MGM Grand, meanwhile Dad choose over the Rio. Sis, obviously wanted to stay in the newly built Paris resort hotel. Heh purty place, but not a nice price. Maybe its because the place was just built like around last year. Interestingly enough, the imitation of the Eifel Tower is actually a restaurant itself. The elevator is made outta glass so u can see the whole view of Vegas as u go up. Meanwhile, I was thinking about Treasure Island. I dunno, it has the One Piece atmosphere to it. he he he he=D. When I last went there, there was a show going on between the pirates and the navy. It was so cool there's even believable explosions in the water that makes it more interesting to watch. Oh yah, if ur wondering, I'm staying at the Aladdin Resort Hotel. ^^ Its not what I wanted, but its better than choosing those cheap ass hotels dats way beneath the resort hotels. I soo wanted the grand rooms, but they only had added few more cents into the standard price. He he he. One of the best features was it contain a PC compy!! Gwar..Next time maybe. Another important item is not to forget my TRV37 Sony Video Cam. to catch everything on video! ^^ Finally, something to explain in a midterm final!!! ha ha ha ha


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T-chan: Yo gurl. Sorry , I didn't read that post u made on Wednesday, due to the mood swings I had at the time. So yah, I was in my "I don't care" mood at the time, but I was really moved by ur words at the same time. Gomensai!! ^^ Anywho, about the post card incident, did the doggie assault the mailman or something?? ^^ Its probably got germs on it now. Or even worse, a terrorist might've done it!!j/K not trying to scare u. =P

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